Have you ever felt so dead inside? Bored and silent, yet anxious and yearning for the next big thing? Something that will change your world and give you hope?
Well that’s where I am. I’m waiting…and it sucks…balls.
You know in West Side Story, how Tony knows there’s something around the corner, and it’s huge and great and wonderful? That’s what’s happening to me…I’m just worried that my big something will turn out to screw me over…like Tony (he gets killed at the end…it’s a Romeo & Juliet story).
Then I think, maybe this huge thing could have happened earlier. I don’t believe that happiness comes once in a lifetime and you have to take advantage of it right then and there. I believe it’s always there, just out of reach…only when you’re most desperate for it do you attain it.
Maybe if I had been more bold, more desperate for a change, I would have taken more chances and risks in the past. Maybe I’d be a stronger person. Maybe my life would be completely different and so much better.
So I’ve made a decision, and you should join with me. I’m determined to do whatever it takes. I don’t know what it is, or where I’m going, all I know is that I’m making a promise to myself to leap after every chance. To risk. To live.
I’m not going to pass anything up. This year, I’ll be the positive one. The one that’s always there. The one who’s the life of the party, but still is the friend you can count on. I want to do crazy things this year. Now, I’m not talking about super craziness, I mean I want to do things I’ve never done before.
Learn to ride a bike (I know, I’m pathetic), go skiing, paintballing, elephant-riding, surfboarding, and more crazy things I won’t mention(:
Who knows, maybe one experience will change my life for good and help me fulfill my dreams.
And that’s what I encourage you to do(: